Day 1: Concerned about things

About the shape my pillow takes
when it is not new anymore when 
I have molded it for good
with compulsive structured sleeping habits.

About the scent my hair leaves 
on the pillow over and over
so I smell it every night
before I put my head there.

About the vulnerability of my armpits
and leaving them exposed
to the sleep gods or whatever
so I keep my arms tight at my sides.

And about being awake 
when no one else is awake which means 
I must take it back 
by going to sleep when they are all awake.